Grab Some Afternoon Delight :

Recently, I've been able to detatch myself from my own bias and actually looked at myself from a non-partial standpoint. Viewing the way I am around people, without actually giving myself the opportunity to defend my behavior - is quite interesting. I prefer my personality now than, say, three to four years ago. I was someone who was highly driven by their passions - but really had no direction in which to use them. A scattered bit of business, I admit - because I was more concerned with how I was viewed.

Now, four to five years later - and I'm more laidback than I've ever been. The mediator, the person who will listen to you and always has something to add to the pot. My talent is thrown out there and I don't feel such a need to push it in everyone's face, whereas years ago - I had no clue what my actual talents were. It was always unknown - but nobody ever doubted I had something inside all my chaotic drama.

I'm quite happy, really happy. To have a boyfriend who brings out the absolute artist in me and who understands what makes me thrive and what stifles my soul. Really, really makes me proud to know that - hopefully - I can one day do the exact same for him. I want to show him just how proud I am of him and how brilliant, I believe - he really is.

It's quite a rarity to find someone in your lifetime that actually compliments you and gives that added bit of spark to your personality. His kindness makes me want to be greater, his maturity gives me the freedom to feel immature sometimes. I really do believe that he's the perfect person for me. While others might find his demeanor off-putting because he pampers me and he treats me like a Queen - they don't realize that he has his firmness and his personality hasn't changed, I just soften him.

This is the first boyfriend I've had that has made me this happy. The first relationship I've had where we've never had an obstacle show up that we didn't handle, the one true man that I know would come rescue me at the drop of a hat and would slay dragons for me. His love is legendary and it's exactly the kind of stuff that people write sonnets about.

While most people who know me know that I never make hypothetical assumptions - I can honestly say that we will always be together. I doubt either one of us could last very long without the other, because we believe in one another and we know what makes the other one strive.

Done gushing now. =D